Friday, May 28, 2010

घाव 
मेरे घाव का कोई नाम नहीं
कोई परिभाषा नहीं...
रूप नहीं, आकार नहीं 
पर कहीं तो है वो कांटे सा नोकीला
कुछ...
जो बिन पूछे मुझे 
अन्दर ही अन्दर कुरेदता है
जो जब चाहे... 
मेरे ज़ेहन में अपना डेरा जमा कर 
मेरे अहम् के टुकड़े टुकड़े कर देता है. 
धंसे हुए उस कांटे को अब निकालो कोई..
के दर्द तीखा है, तपिश तेज़ है...
साँसें उखड़ी हैं, तड़प गहरी है.
तिल तिल  रीसते मेरे घाव की
कुछ तो दवा दो...
के अब आंसुओं में मवाद
पूरा निकलता नहीं...

किरन

The tragedy of the Indian women of my generation...

Taught to obey, blindly follow, never argue, always agree with elders and male family members (older or younger - didn't really matter - as long as it was a male!), stay in emotional imprisonment and fear always and never ever fight back. Parents, in-laws, brothers...all demanded their due and got it by all means fair and unfair - our conditioning didn't allow us to do anything else. So we conformed...

As a mark of rebellion to the conditioning we raised children with an extremely opposite view. We taught them not to conform,to have minds of their own, to question. But where has that left us?? We have ended up obeying, blindly following, never arguing, and always agreeing with our children, living in fear and never fighting back because we are emotionally crippled...and scared of what the future might be if we don't conform...

Kiran

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I don't know Gagne..

Funny how something comes up from out of the blue, puts you to test and then leaves you feeling downright stupid, with a bruised ego and very, very deflated.

So I don't know Gagne..though I do know that there are hundreds of students out there in the world whose lives I have touched and who probably swear by my teaching methods. They are the people to whom it did not matter whether my pedagogy and education theory were in place or not - what mattered was the love and care with which I treated each one of them. They did not care about my qualifications or the lack of them but they did care about was the manner in which I shared knowledge with them and how I made each one of them feel that they had it in them to learn and apply every bit of knowledge we shared with each other.

To me teaching is a matter of the heart - once you are there the head automatically takes care to function well. And that bring me back to Gagne - who expounded a theory about the lower order and higher order thinking skills and how to utilize these to maximize education.Thank you Mr. Gagne - I have been doing what you expounded without really remembering that I had read about you somewhere and got influenced enough to use your methods. But ask me to quote you verbatim and I am at sea...put me in the classroom with a zillion kids and see me shine...

Sorry people - if I don't measure up in pedagogy, I make up for it in love....and Mr. Gagne RIP....

Kiran